The baby shower for Keeley was an amazing success! It got rid of all of my stress about making sure she has everything. She has everything she needs and now we have moved on to setting up her nursery. For the last week, all her room has been filled with piles and piles of stuff that has yet to be put away. After the baby shower, my husband and I spent some time shopping around on Amazon looking for a few of the bigger items that we REALLY wanted. Yes, I know I don't NEED a glider and ottoman, but it is one thing I have been adamant about having since I was 15. On amazon, we purchased $650 worth of stuff from the registry for less than the cost of the glider and ottoman I had originally registered for. Ummm....yes please! Then, we spent the entire day after shopping and enjoying ourselves. We went out and bought most of the remaining things for her. There are still some small things to pick up, but for the most part we have everything we need in case she decides to show up a little early. I really hope she doesn't, but both sides of our family have a history of premature birth. So, just in case, I am going to make sure her room is ready as soon as possible.
Anyways, with the stress of that over with, it would be wrong of the universe not to drop something else, right? Then again, I guess stressing about her is just part of being a good parent. If I didn't worry about her health, safety, and wants, I wouldn't be ready for her. I guess it just means I am becoming her mother.
However, I did get some not-so-great news. I failed my one-hour glucose test. This was another test I had heard many many horror stories about. How horrible the orange stuff tastes, how boring it is, etc. So, I decided I wasn't going to taste it. Just get it down as fast as possible and don't think about anything else. 45 seconds later, I just had to sit there. I took my phone with and played a game for an hour. Simple. The three hour test on the other hand.....ugh...
You have to fast for 12 hours, which seems fine for most people. I have never been able to go that long without eating. Once I get hungry I need food or I will start to vomit. It gets even worse when I am pregnant. With my first pregnancy, I always had some sort of food with me. Hell, on my wedding day I made my maid of honor walk down the aisle with her little bag stuffed with saltines.
So, you fast, hopefully make it to the lab, and then they stick you. While you are sitting there super hungry, you have to try to once again chug the nasty orange stuff. Some advice, it may taste horrible, but do it SLOWLY if you are already feeling hungry, weak, nauseous, or even just a little "off". I started chugging just like the first time, and I nearly threw up as soon as it hit my stomach. After not eating, the sugar can be a HUGE shock to your body and you will try to reject it. If you throw up, you get sent home and cannot complete the test.
As I sit here and wait for the results, it makes me realize how much this could change my pregnancy. Obviously, I need to follow a specific diet to make sure that Keeley is healthy. There is also all of the AMAZING food I will have to give up. It could also create difficulties with my job. Of course, I know that they will have to make certain exceptions, but it will still be a pain. Not to mention, my husband just doesn't get it. I love that man to death, but he doesn't seem to realize how much this could change everything as far as how I take care of myself. I know it could be worse and I know I can do it, but it doesn't make me worry about it any less. I mean, I have enough to worry about! Why does anyone need to worry about their blood sugar on top of everything else?!
There is nothing I can do to change it, and I will accept the results no matter how they come. I will do whatever it takes to make sure this little girl gets here and is as healthy as I can possibly make her. However, I can't help but wonder....why does everyone else that I know (I know about 9 others that are pregnant) seem to have no problems at all? I have to take more medicine now that I am pregnant, I have heartburn all the time despite my prescription pills, I am RH negative, AND I may have GD. I know my pregnancy could be A LOT worse, but the little green monster in me knows it could also be A LOT easier. As long as Keeley is okay, I will suffer.
Monday, April 22, 2013
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
The guessing begins!
I have been extremely stressed about the baby shower lately. I'm not really sure why, but I want everything to be perfect. I'm not even planning it! I have been watching my registry like a hawk and have a list of everything we would need to buy if not given to us. The total comes to a little over $1800, which my husband and I have in savings waiting specifically for our little girl. So, why am I stressed? Who knows...Nothing was really taken off of my registry and the shower is in 4 days! I have been freaking out about it! I know the stress doesn't make sense, but I just want everything to be perfect and amazing for this little runt. I KNOW there will be plenty of people that will be at the shower to support us. I KNOW everything will be fine even if we have to go buy everything ourselves. However, I can't seem to calm down.
Anyways, I checked my registry before I went into work at about 1:30, and nothing had changed. I called my husband during lunch and he told me how many things had suddenly been purchased. He got home from work at about 4:30 and waiting for him were a few shopping bags. Well, more than a few. There was over $300 in items purchased and left at our door. I asked who all of it was from and he said he hadn't opened the card! I told him to open it so I could call and thank the person, but when he opened the card all it said was "We hope you and Keeley enjoy these things". That's it. No name. No hints. No anything. We have absolutely no idea who gave us such an amazing gift. I mean, this brought so much relief because I now know that it will be okay, but I have no way to thank who did it! The handwriting looks familiar, but I honestly can't place it! I know whoever did this has remained anonymous for a reason, but I REALLY REALLY just want to thank them!
Honestly, I have a sneaking suspicion that my grandpa sent one of my aunts to the store with some money and had them do it on his behalf (my grandpa does not drive, never shops, and definitely does not do baby stuff). My family has done things like this many many times for one another or for others so I'm pretty sure it was someone in my family. Plus, my grandpa has always spoiled me. I mean, ALWAYS. I have never not gotten my way when it comes to him. He is very old school. My father is his first son. I am the first born of that son. Therefore, I have a special birthright. Also, when growing up I spent EVERYDAY at his house. No joke. Every single day we went for at least an hour. He believes that because I am so close to him (he is the one man I would turn to no matter what-like when my car got towed and I needed money to get it out until payday, but couldn't ask my father because I wasn't supposed to be where I was) he will give me everything he can because I have earned it by being there for him. I understand this. I mean, I already want to give Keeley everything! Sometimes, he frustrates me with how much he gives! After we got our new car my husband decided that since it could haul a boat, we needed a boat. I thought we should hold off, but would consider it if we found a good deal. I now have a boat sitting in my driveway because my grandpa GAVE it to us! A BOAT!
Anyways, back to the point....
Whoever did it, than you. It means so much that you are willing to surprise Keeley before she is even here! I will be sure to tell her about it numerous times so that she knows that the world is generous and that she must also be generous. She will also be part of when we give to others. I have done this before (I actually snuck into the house and dropped the gifts by the tree), and the next time we do it she will surely be involved. She will get to experience the adrenaline of not getting caught, and knowing that she did something great for someone without needing to be thanked. She will know what it feels like to watch their pure joy while they wonder what they ever did to deserve such a thing. And that is the amazing thing about giving gifts anonymously, they didn't have to do anything to deserve it. It is pure love. And that pure love is what makes all of my stress melt away. Somewhere out there, someone loves this little girl enough to do something for her that she can never repay. Something that my husband and I can never repay. Something that simply says we are loved.
Anyways, I checked my registry before I went into work at about 1:30, and nothing had changed. I called my husband during lunch and he told me how many things had suddenly been purchased. He got home from work at about 4:30 and waiting for him were a few shopping bags. Well, more than a few. There was over $300 in items purchased and left at our door. I asked who all of it was from and he said he hadn't opened the card! I told him to open it so I could call and thank the person, but when he opened the card all it said was "We hope you and Keeley enjoy these things". That's it. No name. No hints. No anything. We have absolutely no idea who gave us such an amazing gift. I mean, this brought so much relief because I now know that it will be okay, but I have no way to thank who did it! The handwriting looks familiar, but I honestly can't place it! I know whoever did this has remained anonymous for a reason, but I REALLY REALLY just want to thank them!
Honestly, I have a sneaking suspicion that my grandpa sent one of my aunts to the store with some money and had them do it on his behalf (my grandpa does not drive, never shops, and definitely does not do baby stuff). My family has done things like this many many times for one another or for others so I'm pretty sure it was someone in my family. Plus, my grandpa has always spoiled me. I mean, ALWAYS. I have never not gotten my way when it comes to him. He is very old school. My father is his first son. I am the first born of that son. Therefore, I have a special birthright. Also, when growing up I spent EVERYDAY at his house. No joke. Every single day we went for at least an hour. He believes that because I am so close to him (he is the one man I would turn to no matter what-like when my car got towed and I needed money to get it out until payday, but couldn't ask my father because I wasn't supposed to be where I was) he will give me everything he can because I have earned it by being there for him. I understand this. I mean, I already want to give Keeley everything! Sometimes, he frustrates me with how much he gives! After we got our new car my husband decided that since it could haul a boat, we needed a boat. I thought we should hold off, but would consider it if we found a good deal. I now have a boat sitting in my driveway because my grandpa GAVE it to us! A BOAT!
Anyways, back to the point....
Whoever did it, than you. It means so much that you are willing to surprise Keeley before she is even here! I will be sure to tell her about it numerous times so that she knows that the world is generous and that she must also be generous. She will also be part of when we give to others. I have done this before (I actually snuck into the house and dropped the gifts by the tree), and the next time we do it she will surely be involved. She will get to experience the adrenaline of not getting caught, and knowing that she did something great for someone without needing to be thanked. She will know what it feels like to watch their pure joy while they wonder what they ever did to deserve such a thing. And that is the amazing thing about giving gifts anonymously, they didn't have to do anything to deserve it. It is pure love. And that pure love is what makes all of my stress melt away. Somewhere out there, someone loves this little girl enough to do something for her that she can never repay. Something that my husband and I can never repay. Something that simply says we are loved.
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